Thoughts

I danced around these thoughts
Hoping it wasn't true
That I could love myself
And accept all that I've been through
But even as I stare down at the broken glass
The fragments of my mind
Manage to come back
I find myself shutting off the world
Never wanted to be that way
But the reality I'm living in
I'm just surviving
Not living fully
And the smile that comes
When you see my face
I can't tell you how much
It has been faked
I wanted to accept myself
But even I know how it is
These depressing thoughts
Nobody wants to be around
So I keep quiet instead
But where is everybody now
People come and go
Yet nobody really stays
And truly tries to know
I was constantly told I was replaceable
Among many other things
And I've come to believe them
These thoughts I can't shake
Now I'm back to dancing in circles
But it's a matter of time
Because even if I come back
It doesn't mean I will stay
I know what lurks in these thoughts
Will eventually pull me away