In Deep Thoughts Again

When I said hold me down,
I didnt mean under water

Youd say love and hate or like day and night
So love without hurt is like the sun withouts it light

It dont sit well with me like I cant digest it,
I dont get the feelings i use to,
i just hope it ain't my nature

My behavior entails to be no savior , I'm not worth a chance to give,
I've lost it all trying to chase what I thought was greater
But my down falls seems to root from relationships..

I dont get it, but those who say they do are liars
I dont have time for conspiracies when my reality feels expired

No one truly has the answer so I just stay open minded
But now my mind filled to the point of explosions
Of ruminations and deep breaths to ease stressful feelings of dying