Ben

You crushed my bones with your heel After you left
I'll never forget that shit eating grin,
Always making me smile.
Here I am looking out the window,
Blue skies and white clouds,
And all I can think of is rain.
I felt your pain
Even when you laughed.
You told jokes to Rob by the pool,
While we smoked like there was no tomorrow.
You wouldn't dare to share the burden.

You were always like that,
And i wish I was like you then.

We were a few steps away from each other,
But your verbs inspired me.
You are who I dream to be,
To become.

Robs gone now so its just me right?
Or are you there
Somewhere
Keeping in touch.
Sometimes I wonder...
Maybe its just my luck
In this glorious God given life.

The leaves fall with the sun,
And as I sit here,
Staring out this fucking window,
I realize there's nothing left,
Nothing left to be done.

You tried and we tried for you,
With love And hope.
Fear and pain..
And i won't ever see that grin again.
I know.

I'd like to say I'd be alone.

But we both know it wouldn't be true.

I love you Ben
And ill always miss you.