my little game

I started my little game
when I was twelve years old.
It goes a little like this,
everything is controlled.

everyday is the same
constantly dreading a meal,
always calculating calories
trying to achieve the ideal

my curly thick hair
and my glowing skin
both things I gave up
just to be thin

the pounds fell off
and my bones began to show
"only one more pound"
I said ten pounds ago

I picked up new hobbies
I run everyday
in hopes that it lowers
that dreaded number I weigh

I'll never get tired
of my little game
because when I look in the mirror
I still look the same.