Pull me out

I cant find myself
Its stranger that I notice.
I cant hear myself
I'm trying to stay focused.
I feel as if im deep somewhere
But not because I'm sad
Maybe I'm off collecting things
Like knowledge to be held

I can find myself
I'm not sure that I'm looking
Who the hell is running things?
My mind needs some adjusting
I can't hear myself
I'm not sure that I'm listening.
Who the hell is speaking then?
She actually sounds quite tempting.

I cant feel myself
This girl is way too numb
I may have wished for exactly this
10 thousand feelings turned to none.

I finally found myself
I chose to give her up.
Shell never care
For all she knows
Shes always been this numb.