(Poem 3) This poets underground love

I knew it was love when I waited an entire season or two for you.
The days couldn't breeze by faster than lighting and
a quick sun shower
I remembered your name before you reminded me
Most I dont give one or two fucks
But yours was penned in my heart for a few months
I'm confident by nature
But it all falls down when I see you
I stumble I stutter
You were the sweetest face I thought about all summer
Autumn to winter
While the leaves lost their balance and fell to the ground
 I thought of you
I didn't start loving you until your eyes met mine For the first time I had butterflies
And I wanted to flee
 But, you realized that it was out of the ordinary me wanting you
I wanted you to love me
 how I loved you or still love you
Do I ?

Without sex
Without out you looking your best
Ive never seen it yet
Love
When we really first met
This is like no other
I saw
I felt
I heard
It
Coming
It was the preejaculation
Of rejection
That eventually nutted in my face
Thanks
 you
left a nug rag of pretty hurtful words near,
Me ,
I'm still confident
a smidge arrogant
no a lot of arrogance !

I wanted you to love me like I loved you
Love you
Do I ?
Underneath designer clothes
I feel naked to the truth

You say maybe
I say it will be
Me fooling myself chasing you
This Ferris wheel of thoughts
Of you feeling the same has my brain 60 percent
Fucked up
Never giving someone all of me
     I stashed a 40
For my heart to drink when Its lonely
 I just want you to love me like I loved you
      Love you
         Do I?
Do you Love me?

Theres been silence