I am an expert

I can barely feel
the weakness that I
can't endure,
I have almost forgotten
what it is like to move,
I had almost convinced myself
that this is normal,
That this whole situation
might actually be normal.

This is not normal.

My legs being
weak and useless,
Sometimes not even being sure they are there until I look down,
Not knowing when I will
feel them again,
Not knowing if I will at all.

I have become good at it,
At the stilt walk between
crutches ane canes,
A balance between braces and
Bandages,
The careful procedure needed
to take two steps,
I am becoming good at this.

I no longer feel the weakness
and enduring it is what I do.

I am an expert at this.
I am an expert at barely managing.