"It's Just Me"

I left you in a corridor one day,
a tidal wave washed us all away down the drain.
The lights went out one night leaving us in dark,
the rain pelted the ground and I saw you smile.
We danced in the pouring rain on that building,
tears streamed down your face but I thought they were oceans.
I think I left the only sane part of me in your arms,
my heart seems to care but lately I don't seem too sad.
Write letter to and fro too long,
fifty pages not enough and I read them so many times I know them by heart.
Your eyes are like snakes and I feel alive,
a piano man sings as I talk to you in a private bar.
Smoke hangs down above the room and I realize it's just me,
still hearing voices but that's okay because their not real.
You care so much it makes me sick,
I push you away because I know you mean it.
Make a list of everything I've done wrong ran out of paper,
we used to be so strong and I can taste the salty sea.
Finding out that pulling down a sheet on my bed is a start,
crisp as apples in a fresh baked pie.
I had a dream you with me and I didn't understand,
standing outside of a sleepless night in a light filled room.
It wasn't your fault we never lived on the edge of heaven,
I lost a piece of me in you we were choking.
Air has left the lungs of red love,
so sad but were so damn strong we can do this.
I've always lived undone so it doesn't matter if you push me,
you don't want to hurt anymore but I can't promise anything.
My heart can't take this,
unable to hang on to a steering wheel

. . .

Curl your hair and wear your blackest dress,
they say it's time and you nod your head like you know.
Funeral bells create just a simple hell,
going over things you wished you said and walking in heels.
You came to see me in the box I never thought I'd use,
waterworks pour acid and smear that pretty make-up.
Bubbles of screams erupt from the slit between your nose and chin,
the sky is blue this time we meet again and we crumble.
See the purple ring around my eyes though the black burns my neck,
you taught me how to live at last and say goodbye.
Velvet red keeps me in my coffin home,
lay a hand ontop of mine and I am home but I watch from up here.
I'm still missing you are you missing me too,
see you cry and collapse at the bier holding your face in your hands.
I know I said that I'd come home but I took a wrong turn,
swurved off to the curb and found that I wished I was with you.
Metal and dirt flew in my face but the last thing I saw,
your hair when it got in your eyes and you smiled at me across the table.
We always said we'd be together forever,
I know you miss me because I see your heart; breaking.
I should've never let go because now I see,
up here it's just me.