Pain

to know my life,to know my pain
you must not die but you must gain
the love for one you understand
until the day you take her hand
make her glow and watch her smile
your life can get no better now
but for you it can get worse
the fact you live itself is a curse
your only love died out the blue
and her death will only be traced back to you
as you lay in your room,drunk off hate
you start to think and you start to debate
if you should take the gun and end it all
you start to pull the trigger but then the gun falls
you wake up,look around,then put your head down
the same dream again,you can't help but frown
that curse i was talking about almost killed me
and god said he wont help for he'll show no sympathy......