Do You Love Me?

I'd die to know
You love me.
Although I've killed
To understand why you don't.
Everyday I dream of
What could be.
The anguish my heart feels,
The agony my wrists deal with,
All to see if I'm alive
Without you.
I need you're love
To hold me up when
It's all too much to bear,
But you're not there.
It burns when I see you,
My heart aches,
My hollow eyes fill
With salt water and blood.
Why do you hate me
When you used to
Tell me you loved me?
Another one of your lies to
Only satisfy?
Everyday I have to
Face the ugly girl
Who stares back
Through me.
Is that why you left?
Or is there another reason?
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be...
Maybe I just wasn't the one
Like I hoped to be..
I'm sorry I wasn't what
You wanted.
I'm to blame like always.