Back at it again

Back at it again.  
Greetings from my old friend.  
Getting ready for my pocket to spend.  
Numb myself till I can't comprehend.  
I've been Going through some shit.
Our team is going to split.  
No more "I'm so glad we met"  
No more "please come back to bed"  
All these bitches love to pretend  
More than once I've come to a dead end  
 
Back to a cold heart.  
Cooled down a whole lot since the start.  
Memories stuck on replay in my head & it's still not my fault.  
Next one that has me is going to have to break through a vault.  
Left me alone to fend for all  
As a result I gave you judgement by default.  
Your efforts showed alot.  
 
Back at building.  
I'm sick of yielding.  
Got to start doing more living.  
Sorting out my thoughts into something with meaning .  
You were never giving.  
Kicking & screaming  
Hitting and kissing.  
Lines were crossed and I can't see myself forgiving.  
I surrender my feelings.