4 years

its been 4 years
4 fucking years
every time i come close to contacting you
i get told the same 2 words
she died
but i refuse to believe it
you knew how to help
everytime my heart was broken
and now its completely shattered
you weakened it
he broke it
its been 4 years
but youre the only person i want to speak to
youd know exactly what to say
but i did what i did
that night i left you while you were at your worst
and now i cant help but tell myself
ill never hear from you again and its my fault
you did it because of me
and i have to live with that everyday
i lost my first love because i was selfish
and now im heartbroken
for the first time since that night
and nobody knows what to say
i wish i could hear your voice one last time
i wish i hadnt done what id done that night