Tried

I tried to rise I promise I did but something inside this mind said STOP THIS.

I tried to smile I promise I did but something in my jaw clenched FUCK THIS.

I tried to touch i promise I did but something in my arms said WHY THIS.

I tried to love I promise I did but something in my gut screamed YOU DON'T DESEVRE A KISS.

I tried I promise I did but something in my soul whispered ENOUGH.

I tried to bite my tongue I promised I did but something in my teeth rattled I'M NOT HIS.

I tried to move my tongue I promised I did but it shivered with my spine and shaked NOT THIS.

I TRIED TO OVERCOME I promise I did but something tells me for my love you only have a death wish.

I promise I did, love you so true.

I tried to Rise I promise yet you push me like a rag doll and my body fades into GOODNIGHT.

I tried to SMILE I promise i did yet the force I'm begging laughs and SPLITS.

I tried for you I really did, shared my ways, helped you love yourself.

Prayed for days, yet something in me says NEVER AGAIN.