Old o_o

I haven't said i'm never glad
Just these past few days
Or months
Or weeks
I'm feeling rather sad

I'm not sure what to make of this
Somedays sleep is like a sweet abyss
I forget my worries til next morn
All day my body and heart are worn

I've cried myself to sleep at night
I've danced around in pure delight
I've fought the urge to use the blade
I tell myself my joy's delayed

I see the scars on my friends arms
I know the feel of a broken heart
Sometimes my best friends are what keep me sane
Most time I just smile through the pain