I want you in my life, but I don't want to be in the friend zone

I really want you in my life, but I don't want to be put in the friend zone; time after time again, I hear you fucking with these individuals that don't love you. They look at you like you is a piece of meat on a grill. When you tell me the sexual things that you do to these folks I hate to hear it, because you doing sexual activities to the wrong ones plus you are giving them something they don't deserve. This is why I don't ask any questions about your past, because the truth hurts. I really want you in my life, but you so picky and confused on what is real or fake. Also you lost on what is love, most of the people on this earth thinks that love is sex. Sex is just a lustful temptation between two people or more who think that is what needed in their life. God is love and also its being there for one another when times are rough, making sure that person is good and checking in as Well. Sometimes I wish that people can have x Rays on feelings and intention, so that you can see who want you and who just want to fuck you. Don't push me away if I am trying to be there for you. It's kind of fucked up how you let the fuckery of this society and generation make your choice on who to be friends with, hang with, and have sex with. I really want you in my life, but YOU making hard by having me to wait on YOU while you still chasing and being tossed around by individuals That don't love you. My biggest fear is when a person try to make their way back after you have a reputation, disease, or kids by a lowlife. It's kinda fucked up, some people would say if you love that individual unconditionally then it will not be no problem, but I wanted to be your first to do anything with. Now if we do get together it's not going to be the same, because you gave your love away so many times that you don't feel my love and its turns into a competition between me and your ex's. I really want you in my life, but you fucked up on the stupidity of this generation about negative sexual things that people came up with and been around; for example friends with benefits, threesomes, competition on who is the side and the main, and etc. I really want you in my life, but for some dumb ass reason you can't keep putting me in the friend zone and expect me to stay to wait on YOU. I can tell you don't know what real love is, because every time I show you something different you act like I did some wrong. I really want you in my life, but you don't see me for who I am so I'm just going to disappear focus on myself. May God lead you in the right path, but I'm tired of waiting so I'm gone.