Now you’re gone

It’s as strange as it sounds
Because I can think it
But it’s pretty fucking hard to believe in the slightest
What if she really did love you
When your friends and others said you never had a chance
And you were so certain that it was undeniably true
And that when you thanked her for being a friend
You broke her heart without a clue
And that’s why she tore you out of her life
And in a turn of things
Maybe it was the best thing to happen to her
To rid me from her life
To turn me over to the man we made fun of and teased
It’s so strange
I thought I never had a chance with someone like her
And if I did that I’d had blown it up months prior
Maybe that’s true
But I’m not believing it
I know the truth
That I wasn’t good enough to even be her friend
And I still would never say my hate for her
Even if it came up in my thoughs
How I was not wrong from my perspective for what I said and that I truly wanted to be a friend and not just a louse tailing her around
And that what she did was evil for denying me any sort of pass to her
But I don’t hate her
It’s a dream that doesn’t come true
I can only honestly say I miss her
So much