the other way

Introverted, was a big part of how I defined myself
I've been anxiety for too long I can't be sure
How could I even know then
This really is debilitating and how intensely this realization hits me now that I am needing to address reality and the guilt that has built up from avoiding what is paramount to my identity
I don't know who I am
Too long estranged from my family and friends
How can they know who I am when I don't
I feel alone and I miss that acceptance they had for me
I am afraid to diss appoint
I am ashamed that I have abandoned them, they're a blessing beyond what I deserved
I am so disconnected
My soul is far from me, my body is a vessel