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Stressed
With the stress of my dissertation running alongside my other assignments
and now the unpredictable suicide of a good course mate
I feel myself tip toeing into the darkness
I was so certain and full of hope for my future
but the impact of lost life has me paralysed
and now here I am, lost in silence
We were supposed to graduate together this year
but instead we had to wrap you up for your eternal slumber
your smile will be forever etched into my heart and mind
I keep getting these urges that I have to ignore
past coping methods which release the pain
but left me tattoo'd in abstract scarring
I'm clinging onto the light with all of my strength
but I'm exhausted and my eyes are sore
I just want to sleep.
and now the unpredictable suicide of a good course mate
I feel myself tip toeing into the darkness
I was so certain and full of hope for my future
but the impact of lost life has me paralysed
and now here I am, lost in silence
We were supposed to graduate together this year
but instead we had to wrap you up for your eternal slumber
your smile will be forever etched into my heart and mind
I keep getting these urges that I have to ignore
past coping methods which release the pain
but left me tattoo'd in abstract scarring
I'm clinging onto the light with all of my strength
but I'm exhausted and my eyes are sore
I just want to sleep.
Published 26th Apr 2018
Author's Note
Not much of a poem, I'm literally just venting so bare with me...I'm a final year university student and I'm stressed enough as it is but my friend killed himself and I just...I'm now more stressed...I'll try to come up with a better, more poem like structure when I've calmed down. Please give me the time and strength to grieve.
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28th Apr 2018 10:28pm
Hey Beautiful, don't you dare fix or delete this, you are in the beginning stages of grief
This is your Page sweets, let your thoughts go kersplat, allow the hurt the pain, in order to heal you scream, whisper even doodle on this page, kinda think of it as a journal. You have many good people here, if you just wanna hang out, hang out, you want to read not reply then by all means. Yes my dear you, your words will be missed, take this time for yourself and go through the stages till healing feels right. My most sorriest of condolences, I love you Merchant you take good care of yourself alright. A beautiful poem of sorrows struggle, I love the raw honesty, keep your chin up lil buttercup, much love much respect,
Survivor🕊️
This is your Page sweets, let your thoughts go kersplat, allow the hurt the pain, in order to heal you scream, whisper even doodle on this page, kinda think of it as a journal. You have many good people here, if you just wanna hang out, hang out, you want to read not reply then by all means. Yes my dear you, your words will be missed, take this time for yourself and go through the stages till healing feels right. My most sorriest of condolences, I love you Merchant you take good care of yourself alright. A beautiful poem of sorrows struggle, I love the raw honesty, keep your chin up lil buttercup, much love much respect,
Survivor🕊️
29th Apr 2018 4:50pm
Hello Survivor, thank you for taking the time to lift me up with your gentle words. I'm currently at a loss for what to say or do at the moment; maybe a grief induced writers block? I don't know...I've experienced death before but not through suicide. It just crushed me. I'll leave this poem up seen as the rawness is appreciated. Thank you for being so kind, much love to you ❤
With your emotions and thoughts lost in swirl of whirl(suciides ash snatches all reason) it's no wonder your words are reeling all adrift. What process of semblance flows out, no matter of senselessness or random, let your ink flow, maybe on looking back some sort of order can be found. Sending my warmest of warm embraces, wishing you a bit of peace and ease. Much love,
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