Live with everything

What can you do when one gives up but the other still wants to go strong, what can you do to touch that star and still shine next to it? I've closed my eyes more then a thousand times I hold my self shaking as I tell my self, "live with everything" as I try to keep my smile on my face inside I feel like I'm falling. Can I really make this work?, can I really live and hope for more?  I'm I who I really want to be? My head spining as just more questions come, can I be more? Can I still shine with a dim light? Can I live with everything and come out on top? Can i?