See Me

I feel this aching in my chest
As if my ribs are about to burst
Exposed my heart, revealed my soul
Didn't know he'd hit it where it hurts
Tied a tournaquet
Covered it up, took some pills, and bandaged it
Never healing, never growing
Just learned to cover up the damages
Let it rip all through your body
Til the pain brings you to your knees
When no drug, love, or time
Could numb the pain or make it ease
So you just bury the emotion
And place it in an unmarked grave
Next to it lies patience and euphoria
Along with innocence that couldn't be saved
Deep breaths, deep breaths
Feels like im swallowing something acidic
Felt these knives inside my back
Sounds like I got a case of who did it
But I know who
Handed these people the very weapons they used against me
How twisted could my mind be
To arm my enemies and expect them to defend me
They swear they wanted to befriend me
Swear I could let them close to understand
Thought there was chemistry, positive energy
But that was just a shocker in their hands
You have no one in this world
There's always some point to make someone leave
Fear of isolation but having no trust
Is a pain that makes you wish you were deceased
Distrust spreads like a disease
From one person to the next
Like what is this nigga really after
Information or he wants sex
Makes you lose good things
Because you can no longer trust your mental
Was on the breaking point for too long
About time I got a new pencil
Like yes, I know I got issues
Anxiety and depression consume me
When good vibes approach me and set eyes on me
I just wonder, like "who me?"
Make me wish my thoughts were open
See inside my heart and find nothing but goodness
I showed you everything that made me special
But you ran away and you took it
Like how could you
I'll tell you what it all means to me
My desire to love and be loved
Is what separates me
From the evil and the wicked
No matter what you may hear
Irrationality is a result of my loneliness
Being alone is something I fear
I can't justify the unjustifiable
I can't explain what makes no sense
I can only paint a picture with my mind
But I can't show you the image
So I just need you to listen
This is my confession holding blessings
As I focus on my miseducation
And I relearn the same lessons
That I thought I knew
Like knowing biology and entering chemistry
Yeah, you know some
But you have to know the differences in between
Or you'll never see the bigger picture
So forgive me for letting you greet my heart with hesitance
Like a newborn baby being held
Its has to be treated so delicate...