Crushing kids

Hi everyone I'm new here trying to be brave but im affraid I'm filled with fear

Never do i allow people in or near let alone grant them access to read these inner most thoughts right here

anxiously i beat on myself then get way too stressed about my mental health
if problems are riches then I got some considerable wealth but like to keep it on the low low you know all hurt converted to stealth on a shelf

As a child i got described as the lights bein on but nobody home
these days Im a man on my own trying to create a thrown who resides in pure darkness writing painful poems with no self belief in his tone

A great man once said we take a spark of interest and create a flame then feed the fire until it becomes a roaring blaze

School went and extinguished mine leaving behind only chard remains to find

Each lesson made to sit outside without being allowed to step in
left thinking what was on the curriculum again or have I got to start guessing

segregated and treated like a fool with no coping tools
is it any wonder I broke each and every one of the rules

Breakfast dinner and tea detention most weeks
with so many lines to write I can't convey that tension with any words I know humans speak

School took from me but naver gave then had the nerve to act perplexed when i turned up like I'm crashing a rave

Trained teachers who were more like preachers now their my most despised creatures

Where's the real life speaker's
the youth of yesteryear who feel the pain of being all misunderstood and ill treated