What?

My inner thoughts are like a pendulum

My emotions going back and forth, side to side

One minute I am in a state of bellum,

the next I love them like my own bride

I know not what's going on with the emotions of my soul not how to feel them

I'm so lost, so confused, not sure how much longer I can abide.

My thoughts are a river that ebbs and flows at random and I am simply just going along

I'm breaking apart, irreversibly and it seems there no one in which I can confide

At times I am at peace and others my head is filled with a murderous hum

If this keeps going on I might just succumb, give up, and lay down and die