You Took that Away from Me

Full of life
 
Filled with passion for you
 
I was a sexual vixen
 
Only for your body
 
Like I was on demand
 
Waiting to be remote controlled
 
By your command
 
I was lost in love
 
and satisfied with vanishing into your world
 
Spending hours fantasizing about improving and inventing all the possibilities
 
to make love to you
 
I was the best at it
 
You called my name and begged for more
 
and I gave it to you
 
The absolute high
 
to know that I was good at loving  
 
My heart you owned it
 
and I expressed that with sincerity
 
each time I let you in  
 
I whispered who it belonged to
 
and there wasn’t anything that I wouldn’t do  
 
just to please you …
 
But foolishly
 
greedy
 
and dramatically
 
attention needy
 
you thought you had me
 
Holding securely
 
the lock on my pussy
 
while you ran around nonchalantly
 
with any girl you chose to
 
You thought that the war you initiated
 
would cause such fatal wounds
 
that I lay lifeless surrendering to your will
 
But I am a fighter
 
who refuses to continually be torn apart
 
A master mind
 
who can find
 
her way out of the dark
 
A solider who still can battle and win
 
even after you’ve broken my heart
 
I won’t play along anymore
 
I won’t repeatedly give in

You had so many self identity and insecurity  problems

You suffered with a lot of psychological bullshit

A good man,

you’re brilliant at faking it
 
Exhausted and worn down
 
It took sometime for my scars to heal
 
It was 3 years before I realized everything about you wasn’t real
 
I let you have me over and over
 
Love blind
 
I just couldn’t see
 
That we never made love
 
You were just conveniently
 
fucking me
 
You could care less about the good in me
 
Because you just wanted a freak
 
I was trying to escape past hurt  
 
disguising  yourself as my friend
 
you saw comforting me as
 
an  opportunity
 
You did everything you could to break me down and make a fool of me
 
I loved who I was
 
My uninhibited nature for
 
 the man I loved
 
I was a sweet innocent blend
 
Of emotions, heart, lust, sex, passion and devotion
 
I dreamed of forever
 
A perfect place in my mind
 
But reality has set in
 
and I’ve lost belief
 
That enchanted kingdom I ‘m not trying to find
 
I’ve broken free from you
 
and you’re determined
 
to destroy me
 
Tarnishing my name and reputation
 
with words that are so degrading
 
You have deceived the dogs and puppies  with
 
Sexually demeaning stories
 
Now they chase me hungry
 
like I’m  some piece of meat
 
They think at anytime they can run through me
 
Taking my womanhood low
 
Telling everyone that I’m a souless hoe
 
just so it’ll be difficult to  find true love or happiness
 
There is no extent that you won’t go
 
Smiling in my face
 
While behind my back you would go from place to place
 
Ridiculing and demoralizing  
 
trying to turn me into  a public disgrace
 
Hoping that I would run and hide
 
giving up
 
Collapsing weak
 
But you see I’m stronger
 
A young fool I am no longer
 
I’ve built my own paradise
 
my own world  
 
You can no longer hurt me
 
There is nothing you can do
 
My life has been a blessing
 
So beautiful
 
ever since
 
I got away from and I’m
 
So proud to be
 
Done with you
 
 
No longer a little  silly girl
 
Immature to love
 
I’m fully a woman who has control over her emotions
 
and protects her heart
 
I know what real love is
 
And when I come across it
 
Every part
 
of me
 
My body and soul I will give
 
Wisdom tells me to never spend my life searching and sacrificing
 
living
 
It will find me when I’m ready
 
All I wanted to be is the love of some ones life
 
their dedicated freak as well as their wife
 
Every young woman’s fantasy
 
Naïve I use to believe
 
That you would make that dream
 
come true
 
You’re  just a devilish brutal thief
 
My innocence
 
My childish inner peace
 
You took it from me……