Toxic

I always ask myself why people take advantage of me…
I realized, it's cause they only want you when it's beneficial,
yet they speak of your shit that's confidential.
But it's ok cause I ain't nothin like you.
Cause you always come back saying that "I miss you".
Now I'm over here thinking I could trust you, just to prove to me I was a fool.
The friends you like to keep entertained, are the ones who want's to see you fall just the same.
They don't know you like I do.
But I know you wished they did too.
I've seen you fall, I've seen you cry, I've seen you done it all.
Those friends of yours would rather see you crawl than help you up.
Cause when you're down I know I'm the one there to pick you up.
We both knew you didn't want me, that it was my love you received, that was the one thing that you need.
I put my guard down for you, too late to realize I shouldn't of.
The whole time it felt right cause I thought it was love.
When really it was none of the above.
You hurt me intentionally, covering up the damage you've done emotionally and mentally.
To make you feel better you blamed me, when the world and even you could clearly see.
The hurt that was made is now left here to stay.
The way you walked away, made it clear that it was fake.
I gave you the world, even when you had gave me close to none.
When I should've walked away, you were the first to be done.
Now you're broken and down, those friends of yours are no where to be found.
Funny to see you find your way back, just to apologize and feed me lies. Thinking it would be easy just like that.
You realized you had someone good, but we both know you just wanted me to help you pick yourself back up.
Cause you've lost your way and found yourself stuck.
I realized they only want you when it's beneficial, yet they speak of your shit that's confidential.
But it's ok cause I ain't nothin like you.
Cause you always come back saying that "I miss you".
We both know you don't  miss me, you just miss the thought of me.
You constantly deny the truth, yet it's always accurate for our reality.
It's crazy to say, even after all the pain I still find myself forgiving you, and still loving you.
Only thing that's changed, I no longer see myself with you.
The happiness once given to you, I no longer share nor find.
Once you left for good, I found myself to leave it all behind.
There was a time where I thought it was all love, to realize it was toxic and to be none of the above.
This is where we said our goodbyes, even if it conflicted with our minds.
I've learned that people only want you when it's beneficial, yet they speak of your shit
That's confidential.
But it's ok cause I ain't nothin like you.
Cause you always come back saying that "I miss you".
In the end I'm at fault too,
Trusting to easy,
Loving too hard.
Creating these fantasies that were too good to be true.