Unforeseen Love: The Swae Poem

For a while I thought of love's never existence in me
I thought of its genesis being the first and last for me
But now I feel like I'm at a retake of a love undying and a new thought addiction
Somehow it feels like an addiction deja vu
The thoughts and dreams I had with a man I never knew
I feel like a feast of him in my forever word filled life
It's in how he fills the blanks of my love's desire
The way he fills the blanks of my unwritten poems
It's in the little movements and expressions he seems to put to action when with me
I remember how he felt on my love dehydrated skin
How he held and handled me
His breath and sweat on me
And the spit in the comfort of his lips
I swear for a moment I wanted to dive in -
Dive in with no heart nor soul protection for I trusted his handling
Oh my! I saved myself from the slavery of the thoughts of him
His warmth and countless kisses
Where's my heart at?
Where are my thoughts in this trip of love waves and sails?
Am I already deep in this ocean or right beside the shore with hopes not to drown?
It feels deep already for the questions I had already answered
Flashbacks of his intimate company continues to shower my mind
Flashforwards already in take
And the words come to mind,
I've reached revelation
I fell in love