Without you

I thought this day would never come.  
Battered and torn, recognized by some.
My heart in pieces, my soul now gone, how was i suppose to overcome this pain i feel deep inside?
There's a hole that now exists inside of me, how am i suppose to breathe?
I feel helpless and lost, was it right to leave like I thought?
The answer is no, I cannot even glow, I cannot even begin to explain what I feel, without you its so surreal.
I want to curl up in a ball, and be there forever not ever wanting anyone else to fall.
I know that I hurt you, I know I have no clue, but you shut me out, isn't that true?
I wish things were different, I wish I knew and I would know what I was going to go through.
I want you to come back to me, just the way it should be.
But I know it will never happen, i ruined my dream of ever being happy, some day I will recognize myself again, but I will never know when.