What's The Point..

I know it might be the reason,
When my love to you came up with words and deeds..
When i started to tell you,
About the magical things i feel about you..
About what you were to me ..
I know it was the reason..
For there's no other reason A can see..
When i had you among others,
You were so into me..
But having only you,
Made you change .. and fall out of me..
Shouldn't i trust you?
Shouldn't i let you in?
Should i keep you charmed,
By "the ladies man" you saw in me?
Was it a mistake that i shared with you,
What was inside me?
Shouldn't i need you,
Or make you the only one for me?
I guess they were right:
"Don't be needy" ..
"They love the manly one" ..
I wasn't being needy .. but it was a fact that i needed you!
I say it and i feel no shame ..
And my heart will never be the one to blame..
Can love be complete .. without needing the one you love?
Isn't love about needing after all?
Isn't love about losing control?
It's only falling into someone,
And I never heard about "falling" with "control"!
So what's the point of love,
If it falls once it's complete!?
What's the point of planting a flower,
If the pest is laying in its seed?
Should we keep it that shallow?
Only "want" but never "need"?
Shall we learn to survive on our own,
And never trust in the idea,
That we have someone that will never leave us alone?
Shall we pretend that our lives aren't built around them,
To avoid the risk of losing them?
That can't be love if it's about pretending..
2 more pills and one more beer ..
Maybe that would make me understand ..
Or make those aching thoughts disappear ..