love of a coward

She wanted to fly away with me, she wanted to free here needs from this world and wanted to be with me for ever, away from her past away from the sad truth around her,  to be locked in my heart forever,  
yet I could never tell her the burden I carried with the clipped wings on my back, a wounded solder I am on his last breath, I wanted her so badly loved her so badly, yet I never wanted to be a tumour on her body, my love would became heavy for her to carry ,  
I knew she is far more capable than any , and in my company she might just become as empty as me, so I played my cowardly act, to prove her that I as an option for her was a greatest mistake, just a rouge brute iam,  
made her strong enough to believe in letting me go was the only good for her. In all her curses I hear my gentle love whisper, As her shadow faded into the crowd, a drop of tear was my only apology for her heart, as I slip into the oblivion I feel now she is really free & strong makes me feel proud for her achievements with a smile hope in the end she will know my greatest act , act for love in love