Immortal

I feel
Like I'm
Immortal
Like no matter how much
Pain
And
Shit
I get stuck with
I just
Can't
Die

And it sucks, you know?
I feel like I'm trapped
In the rotting corpse
Of a dying child
In a stranger's body
Who ( for god knows why )
Chose me as its host
I can't get out
I can't die
And I can't live
All I can do is let go
Surrender to the darkness
Embrace the pain
Accept the suffering
The sorrow
The sin

It's like being shoved
Underwater
Until you're on the verge of darkness
The verge of light
But just as you're about to be released
Set free
You're pulled to the surface
By an unknown source
A creature
A monster
A demon
A God

You take a breath and for a moment
You believe you might have found life
But before you realize what's happening
You're pushed back under

H o p e l e s s
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N  e  e  d  i  n  g

W I S H I N G

But you remain helpless
At the mercy
Of the poison that fills
You're suffocating lungs

Unable to die
Unable to drown
Unable even to scream or cry
What good what it do?
If you could scream
Or cry
Or die
Or drown
No one would come to rescue you
Because, all they see is a smile
A broken, sorrow filled, smile
But they don't see the bad parts
They don't want to see them

You become numb
Wanting to be released from this
Stupid game
They call life
But you're completely
Utterly
Helpless
Hopeless
Immortal