A bit of fuckery

What do you see when you look at me?
Is it the dumb little girl you make me out to be?
Or the woman who falls a little fast and loves a little too hard?
Constantly criticized for her size.
"You'd be much more beautiful if you lost weight." or "You're so fat you'll never get a date."
She sees her razor as okay behavior.
Because the sting and blood are two constant things.
She's so addicted to the pain,
You'd call her insane.
Told, "You have no reason to feel the way you do."
Then thinks, "You don't realize what I've gone through."
To be quite honest
This isn't a protest.
She is sick of having to lie and say that she's alright.
When in all reality she wants to die.