Fake a Life

Camera flashes in my eyes
Couple seconds later that picture is posted online/
Another smile in the sunshine
Pretending everything is fine
But I’m getting sick of this grind/
Got a circle of two thousand friends
That I’ve never met
That click, like, and comment
On every second of this life that I present/
But this life that I present
It ain’t real, it don’t show the pain I feel/
It’s only meant as a façade,
A smoky mirror illusion to mask the face I’m dying/
I need to make a confession
I’m sick of faking this life I’m living/
But if I stop taking these selfies
I’ll fade into oblivion/
I hate to say it but
The attention is the only thing that keeps me going/
And I’m an addict to this poison
Because I know the phone in my hand
Ain’t for communication
It’s a fucking weapon/
A means of concealing what’s really happening
Inside my mind that’s filled with blackness/
But because every picture I posted
Painted a painless existence
No one’s there to offer guidance/
So day after day I suffer through this shit in silence/
But still I can’t help but wonder
Just how much easier this shit would be
If I just made one status update/
Even if I just got one like or comment on it
Would it talk me outta what I’m about to commit/?
What if I took a selfie expressing my pain
Would I still be thinking the same/?
It is possible for this camera and social media
To give those pain a place to scream/?
What if it was meant as a way
To give a voice to those who needed it the most/
But somewhere along the way
We made it into a place to bully and roast/
Without ever fully understanding the impact
We were havin’ because we don’t see the pain up close/?
Maybe that’s the reason I’m lying here
Screamin’ and crying for help
Even though I know no one’s coming
Because I took a selfie and faked my life/
Never cried wolf now these demons
Are consuming me from inside my mind
Slowly eating away at my consciousness/
What is the point of all this?
Ever picture I posted was meaningless
Pure fiction to mask the friction I was feeling/
These people all around me say
If I ever need help just to reach out/
But I’ve been catfishing for far too long
To admit there’s something wrong/
So they don’t see me breakin’ down
They don’t know I’m fakin’ it
Or that what they see is just pretend
A pseudo-reality, fantasy blend/
So in the end it’s me against me
Walking down this boulevard of broken dreams/
I know at the time it seems like
A good idea to pull out your phone
And snap a selfie
Just make sure your life doesn’t become a fucking fantasy/
Yeah I see these smiling faces
All around me but I swear that

CHORUS
You don’t see me cryin’
In these pictures on my wall/
You don’t know I’m all alone/
In this life I’m livin’
You don’t know I’m cavin’ in/
But bit by bit I’m drowning everyday/
But you don’t see the pain I’m in
Because to you my life seems so damn perfect/
No you don’t know I’m dying
Because I took a selfie and posted my life away
But that was never really me/!

Camera flashes in your eyes
Couple seconds later that picture is posted online/
Another smile in the sunshine pretending everything is fine/
But when you lay it all on the line
It’s nothing but a fake ass lie/
Living for online acceptance
Tryna be Instagram famous
No privacy
Taking the easy way out while we’re still alive/
Go a day without a thousand likes
Might as well take a face dive off a tower
If the last picture we posted
Doesn’t have the power to make a pop/
In this popularity based pop culture
We’re more connected than ever
Living in the free world/
But are we free or prisoners
That have been fucking bought and sold/?
Serving up our souls to a devil we’re feeding
While proclaiming our love for this global pandemic/
Our constant need of keeping up
Is systemic poison
Leading us in a direction that leads directly to Satan/
If you’re missing what I’m saying
Put down the phone and start living/
Because I’m sick of hearing about
People faking their lives
Until there’s no life left to live/
See this society has come to cultivate
A culture where anything goes/
Because we’re told no one knows
Who’s making those keystrokes/
Hiding behind the anonymity
We’re fucking drowning in this pseudo-reality/
Blind and deaf to the pain we’re causing
That’s why everyday there’s someone
Taking a selfie to fake a life/
Until one day they’re standing at the edge
All alone with their phone in their hand/
Wondering why they let a falsified picture
Be the merit of their self-worth/
I think we need to take it back to the days of old
Because the devices we hold
Don’t hold the key to our future
But are the object of our departure to the Promise Land/
Murderous weapons we hold in our hands
More dangerous than any gun or missile/
So allow me to blow the whistle
And begin a campaign
To end the fucking pain
We inflict upon ourselves photo after photo/
What’s it going to take for us to
Walk away from fantasy and embrace our insecurities/?
Shatter the filter and own our falters/
Break free of the chains of fright
And actually shed a light on the plight of our struggles/?
I know it won’t be easy
But it all starts by looking in the mirror
And giving a voice to the person inside
Silently screaming/
That no one and nothing alive has ever been perfect/
But this deceptive illusion of fiction
Is not the solution to easing the strife
We face in life/
We all fall on hard times
Go through pain and loss
Darkness all around us/
There’s no reason for you
To add to your grief by playing the thief
And plagiarizing your life
For the world to see/
Just imagine how serene it would seem
If everyone let their pain really be seen/
Maybe then those who died
Behind a screen
Might not have left us reeling/

CHORUS
But you don’t see me crying
In these picture on my wall/
You don’t know I’m all alone/
In this life I’m livin’
You don’t know I’m cavin’ in/
But bit by bit I’m drowning everyday/
But you don’t see the pain I’m in
Because to you my life seems so damn perfect/
No you don’t know I’m dying
Because I took a selfie and posted my life away
But that was never really me/!