Silent whispers

I find myself laying on the floor
With blood streaming from my nose.
Forgot how hard I fall when I get so high!  
 
But still,  
This is the only way I could find  
To escape this maze I'm living in,  
Where the days are long and the nights lonely.  
 
The years are eating on my youth  
And my innocence slowly fades.
I'll take another hit,  
Just to feel alive again.  
 
It's hard to live when happiness  
Is a substance,  
Wrapped in a small plastic bag.  
 
My bones are screaming for help
And my body is hard to carry.  
The orchestrations of my soul
Turned into silent whispers.