Time

I messed up.
Of course that's not out of character.
But this time you got angry
And told me you needed time

How much?
A day?
A month?
A year?

I thought you would tell me
But you never did
So I waited

A day passed and it didn't hurt too much
I noticed your absence because you were the only thing I had worth noticing
The hopes I had of you forgiving me vanished
Almost as quickly as you did

I tried listening to the music you gave me because it felt like the only part of you I could feel
I looked at your pictures and fell in love with your smile again
I didn't sleep last night and I doubt tonight will be different
I tried to apologize a thousand times but you still needed time

A month passed and I've never hurt this much before
I only spoke because I was speaking to you and now I can't do that
You were a big part of my life and I struggle living it without you
I struggle with a lot without you

Every fucking song is about you and each hurts more than before
I look back at that night and wish I could take it all back
My nights are filled with thunder and lightning covering the sound of me crying myself to sleep
You stopped opening my messages because I guess you still need time

A year passed and I don't feel it anymore
It's hard for me to feel anything if I'm being honest
There's nothing in my life worth noticing
So I understand why no one notices me

I don't listen to music anymore. I just can't.
I pray that the guy you're with never hurts you like I did
I hope you haven't forgotten me because I can't stand thinking I lost you that much
We always thought that we were forever but I guess we ran out of time.