Monster

Take a shot, no chaser
Drown my problems in the glass
Muffled voices, they scream and gasp
Sinking deeper than the edge of this razor
Pressed to my skin like pen to paper
I'm an open book
Just pull up my sleeve, see?
Yes, my stories are dark
But this therapy for me
This is how I cope
The others don't understand what they read
They'll never comprehend
Attention is not the reason that I bleed
I'm up at 2AM, bottle in hand, crying myself to sleep
I'm spent and broke, my pillow is soaked, and I've run out of tears to weap
I'm as shattered as my bathroom mirror
Didn't need that to see things clearer
I'm worse for wear
Two bloodshot eyes with tangled hair
I'm the monster in my dreams
Tearing happiness from its seams
Trust me, that girl with the broken smile is more than what she seems
I'm fighting myself and losing
Suffering from sleepless and mental bruising
All while continuing in this cycle knowing my demise will have solely been choosing
I wanna wake up, I keep snoozing
I'm about to fall permanently asleep
God rest my soul that I pray you keep
I've jumped off this cliff knowing it's too steep
Lord knows I'm barely breathing
Eyes wide shut
I'm barely seeing
I'm drowning with my problems
As if drinking more could solve them