Silent thoughts

In my head, my silent thoughts
Making it hard to think
Screaming and yelling but silent all at once
All i can think bout is that blade
The internal pain the exterternal lies
The hurting the cries
No one sees, but i feel endlessly
Its a numbing pain all day
The in pores of my skin
The pumping of my heart that no longer has any other funtion then to beat
But for what, beat for who, when all i want is for it all to stop.
In my head my silent thoughts
Running up and down
STOP!
why cant it all stop
Can i just start with my silent thoughts?