Try to understand

Why don't I smile?
Stares...
I hate the stares of the people around me
The complaints...
They bring me back to my past when they used to bully me...
See the me you seeing
Ain't the me that was born 19 years ago
I had to change...
my style
my hair
my attitude
the way I act
the way I talk
so forgive me if I can't take your compliments because I don't feel comfortable in my own skin
I love all the compliments I get but not the people I get it from...
Until you...
The one person I like getting compliments from gets frustrated because I don't know how to take them
Rejecting so many compliments just became another language to me...
Thank you for making me smile you say it's your job but it means the world to me
The compliments you give me make me feel like it's actually true...
What can I say I'm fucked up
Not having a childhood fucked me up
See I became a soldier at the age 12 joining the army just made it official