Just Fuck It

Just fuck it.
Fuck this life where you can never get ahead
Not disabled enough to deserve help
but too disabled to get by without it...
Just fuck it.
Barely getting by,
Can't afford basic bills,
Seeing others go without because they're giving all they have for you and it's still not enough.
Just fuck it!
Don't vent to me! I'm half the problem!
I can't fix your side, and I'll just leave to fix mine.
Just fuck it!
When you feel on the verge of a breakthrough and it slips away
because of your shortcomings...
Fuck it.
Fuck it all, cuz it'll all burn anyway...

Fuck the people you're never good enough for.
Fuck the self righteous projectors
The manipulators
The game players
The people who make you feel worthless.
Fuck it all...
They're not worth your tears.

Fuck helplessness. For making you feel useless...
Fuck insecurities. For becoming who you are...
Fuck empathy. For giving you the ability to feel another's pain -another who has no clue how much you care...

Fuck love. For being so elusive. So particular. So... Coveted...

Fuck me. For all that I am and am not... -oh wait -you already didn't want to...