the great pig war paralytic

a sedated saturday    
in my room--no tremors    
to remind me i'm alive.    
my pupils dilate. i fall off    
the bed--a cartoon boulder -    
a crazed joker with a medicine    
cabinet full of punch lines.    
     
i wash the walls with chloroform!    
     
breathe deep and    
close my eyes,  
     
i am motionless in white--a    
bright shadow, flickering,    
     
phasing in and out    
of consciousness,    
     
drowning you out    
slower than    
god created earth.