I don't know where I'm going, but I know where I've been

 Treading deep waters, pressing forward against raging winds, batling the sun holding on to what little energy is left so i can keep my head above the waves. Defining moments in which all hope is lossed, looking for any sign of life to cling to... and when i find emptiness in the distance and i hit rock bottom, with all that is in me i push myself back to the surface, gasping for air. My mind screams one last time before giving into the emptiness that surrounds me, and i fade into another place in my mind. Reminessing all the times i cried... and u were there but didnt hold me. The times i fell standing by your side... and had to pick myself up. The conversations about nothing... and your lack of compassion for life with the world at your fingertips. And here i am, fighting for every breath so that i might live to laugh once more. I refuse to give up and die alone in this sea of darkness.

I dream of calm seas, sunny horizons, warm arms around me. When i can finaly rest upon another, and take refuge in someone elses heart.