Disappearing

You're here in the room
Inches away from me
I am in pain
You're fast asleep

You've said you loved me
At least one hundred times a day
Until this morning that I laid by you
You pulled yourself away

Here you are
Doing exactly what's been done before
Perhaps you just need some space
But maybe you could be ready to walk out that door.

Sadness creeping in
Ive cried a thousand tears already
I could be overthinking
Unsure, tears fall and my heart is heavy

Want to turn off my emotions
I hate having to feel
But I'm in love with you
It felt so real

Who am I kidding?
I'm not that stupid, that naive
Thinking you wouldn't do the same
Convincing myself to believe

Silence killing me
Cold and alone
Each thought of death is freeing
This bed doesn't feel like home