My Fault(Revised)

You say it’s meant to help us as a couple
But I say the pain is too much to endure.
I sit back and wish I could hear her chuckle  
And I even hoped the pregnancy would make you mature.
But that was not the case you see
 And that one is all on me.
I’m the one who couldn’t bring her home  
And I’m the one who couldn’t let it be.
I was too busy worrying about if you would roam
Instead of trying to protect her from harm.
So now because of my actions I’m sitting here all alone
Trying to face this storm.
I’m dealing with the pain of losing my child
And I refuse to talk about her because it hurts
And just sitting here thinking about it has my thoughts running wild.
And it’s killing me to know that I will never see her wear skirts.
I will never teach her about the birds and the bees,
Or to always say thank you and please.
Now don’t take this as an excuse or as me forgetting about my child,
Because that is never the case.
She is my angel,  
My heart,
My everything,
and that’s one thing that you can never erase.