Leave me alone

Swelled up eyes observe the vastness
of transmuted emotions
In a blink of an eye
misery grows into a beautiful shroud covering the wholeness
It seems to be comforting
Funny...it's almost like tears have been yearned  
The air inhaled is so heavy that the body
pleads to be left on the ground, curved and shaking
"Leave me alone", a request to all energies approaching
Only my loneliness answers back
requesting to be dressed in black
and just let it be for a while
explore what feels wrong
how to feel right
Identify each truth or lie
 
 
Reality won't leave me alone
Effort  for each single breathe
Nothing matters for long...
but again that's all you can get
I stand behold you for I can't escape myself
As long as I keep my most obscure side hidden
a release from their influence is not an option
New versions of what's actually there
The excuses, hermaphrodites species reproduced by fear
And fear, the wounds that won't let you see and be your true self
To know us better with the clarity of human mind in its chaos
screw its system
since I'm here
 
 
 
In Death...
we'll be alone!
In Life we have a chance.