new moon (part 1)

Take back what you said it can't be true I don't believe it. As you speak the words to say goodbye my world,my heart they vanish into thin air. You say things like "I don't love you and I never will" but I love you. You say this will be the last time I will see you. I try not to believe you. As I fall to the ground laying in agony I try not to believe the words you have spoken. You kiss my forehead and whisper goodbye .....silence.... you've disappered. I stand with the will power I have left "I will not let you go". I search and search but your not there....no where. To much for me to take I break down looking through tears at the palace where my heart once was. I cried longing for my love,my life...you..  
Every night,every bloodly painfilled night I dream of your words,the one's that stole my peace.I'm so tired of the screaming so sick of dreaming you but I can't stop. Dreaming them only keeps me from healing right.it only keeps the hole in my chest open.
Months of these nightmares pushing me to the point of no return..
I live with no life....
I breathe without breath...
I cry without a heart for you have taken it..