Why

Hey sis do you remember when i try to end my life 1 time no 2 times so close 3 yes 1 i try to cut my wrist u walked in on me and cried to me ask me why i dropped the knife and we both sat and cried i sad i was sorry for this i said i wont do it again. Do you promise with that i went quiet.
Second time i tried hanging my self when i was fading out takeing my last breath sudden shock woke up un the hospital with u in tears and i can see the fear in your eyes as you cried you asked my why then i started to cry.
Third and final time took some pills fell down past out then i felt ur hands down my throat as look at my like look at what youve done i can see the sarrow in your eyes as we started to cry you asked why then i said i was done im sorry it wont happen again this time im being honest i promise. I realise what i was doing to the one who always had my back and always on my side.
But why do you stick by?