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Because Of You

i do not remember the shift � � � � �
it must have happened slowly � � � � �
spreading like a deadly disease � � � � �
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in the beginning it was heaven � � � � �
he put me high on his throne � � � � �
and treated me like a queen � � � � �
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he was a lost soul like me � � � � �
an artist, a poet, a wanderer � � � � �
a connection beyond compare � � � � �
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till the shock: it was just sex � � � � �
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(which i still don�t believe) � � � � �
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slowly my brain got washed � � � � �
believing the fables i was fed � � � � �
ambivalent feelings imprinted � � � � �
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you give your life a 7 out of 10 � � � � �
don�t you see it�s just worth a 3 � � � � �
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my strength crushed and deleted � � � � �
my selfesteem killed and defeated �
degraded humiliated manipulated � � � � �
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i gave you the benefit of the doubt � � � � �
when will i see you again? �i miss you � � � � �
you forget a lot, do you have dementia � � � � �
sorry sweety, will you forgive me please � � � � �
have you been tested for schizophrenia � � � � �
you are my fairy, you are mine forever � � � � �
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forever his harsh words will linger � � � � �
Text: i will be in Spain for 2 weeks � � � � �
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i still remember the weeks i waited � � � � �
the exact date that he came back � � � � �
the silence that lasted for days � � � � �
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broken by a ruthless text � � � � �
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____________________? � � � � �
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a heart that stops � � � � �
a body that crashes � � � � �
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the questions remain: � � � � �
am i nothing but a joke � � � � �
am i really that worthless � � � � �
was i just an object to use � � � � �
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i still feel as if i never existed � � � � �
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