Prayer #5

Lord Jesus another day
Another day, filled with pain
When will this sorrow cease
When will I finally find peace

Tears by day nightmares by night
Why is my life I never ending fight
So understand my pain
So I try to share but judge me and say I'm going the wrong way

I need a blessing I need a miracle
Something to feed my hollow soul

Every morning I wake
Wishing I didn't wake
Slit my throat
On my own blood I choke
Close and pull a the .45
In the blink of eye
I can see my family my life God Satan hell at the same time
My eternal grave I come to rest
How did it come to this

Closed casket at my funeral
For those who say they cared
Lord I can you hear
I'm so scared
In this world alone
No one to lean shoulder on
Please don't leave me
Take me where I need to be

Where do I go when no one cares
No air I breath on despair
At this point
I see no point
I will just continue to live my life
And whatever happens happens
I feared this day many of days
And I what I dread will happen has finally happened
So fuck this world and fuck this life
See you in the afterlife