Taylor

"I just really need a break."

Ten years, five months, three weeks
I've had a lot of time to think
I burned all three letters
All unread

I don't hate you
I never could
And I'm not mad

But I haven't seen your sister in seven years
I haven't picked up the phone to call her either
And she looks like you now
But instead she looks happy

I'm not sure how to process that

I don't look at the color red the same way
Shallow water makes me anxious

Sometimes I wonder
If I hit three more stop lights
Or if I was fourteen and a half minutes early
Would it have made a difference at all?

"I'm so sorry."