The Last Bond I Had

 I'd drive all night to feel ok, I've got a roof over my head so this is kinda hard to say, I've been somewhat depressed minus my relationship statues, its kind of hard to push forward when you have so much holding you back. I miss the old days with billy swimming in the callusahatchee when life wasnt so hard and i had a reason to be happy, i love the woman im with but i cant stop thinking about travis. life just has a way of being a bitch.
 I wont stop pushing forward, and my sholders will keep collection of dust and tears, I'll hold them high and keep pushing people to fight their fears, im scared i might give the wrong advice and scar some one for the next few years.
  Its easier to make a mistake then the right decision. my arms are riddled with the one's ive made, my stories and my pain. Not one's that im proud of,but ones ill remember as long as im awake. Every night i dont sleep i think that if i do then ill wake up screaming, im scarred that the black rings around my eyes are the reasons i cant dream, the less sleep the less worry, thats why all my posts on facebook are at two in the morning. I know im not the only one in mourning, Since his passing I havnt heard quentin your not alone, not one person to say dont deal with this on your own, and thats fine becuase I've dealt with worse in confined walls in isolation. Ruth cooper and DCF altercation's, but when he was in our arms and i had my last conversation I told him i loved him that was the last bond i had with my brother.

-Quentin Knight A.K.A KnightTimePoetry- for Travis Willis im sorry i couldnt write this until now bud but you blocked my mind and i miss you you'll always be in my heart where you made the biggest impression.