Give me whats mine !

When is my time ?
To shine
So bright like fire in the sky
I just want someone thats mine
On cold nights
When the nightmares tear me apart
Hold me close
Like im not wrong
But something right
When is my time ?
Ive lived
ive died
Did my soulmate pass me by ?
When is my time ?
Because ive died inside !
As far as the eye can see
Theres no soul
no light
Darkened by horrific nights
Cigerrett burns peel my skin
The smell of human flesh again!
Whens my fucking time !
Ive lived
ived died
God damnit give me whats mine !
Ive paid my dues
Watched best friends die
My father was taken from this life
at the age of nine!
Everything i loved !
leaves or dies !
So I ask heaven
God and satan 
Whens my time ?...