Snuffed

I've gotten to where I don't cry myself to sleep every night like I was but the sadness still remains. I ache for love still and still I feel pain. I've almost reconditioned myself, to take just what I get but still there remains an issue whether either of us want to admit. My back to yours and vice versa, it's a lonely sad routine. Coming home to video games TV and social networking has dulled life and bored me. I have flames inside me burning and you don't utilize them, only snuff me out to make us both cold and that's a big problem. I do not wish to live this way for this is not what I want nor who I am. I won't force you to love or embrace me when it's an obvious and strenuous chore. I'm just confused and disappointed that you couldn't give me more. It's okay to give up on us and it's fine if you leave. I think staying or leaving would be an equivalent really. So this is where I am but not sure if I stay. I've shared every feeling, thought and concern with you and I've ran out of things to say. P.s. I still love you.